6 month update

Here I am! A little over the 6 month mark! Wow! I never thought I could make it this long!

So I guess I'll start with a little physical progress update. Since I started using the Cyclic soap in addition to everything else, the gigantic eruptions have largely stopped. I did find that the Cyclic was over drying and that because of that it was causing smaller breakouts, almost like a rash, on areas that had been previously clear. So I have cut back to once a day in the evenings. And may even go to every other evening, using the Desert Essence soap on the off nights. I still have areas of larger pimples, but absolutely nothing like it was. There was a point about a month and a half ago where I was beginning to wonder if I would ever actually see the shape of my jawline again. I kid you not, the whole back half of my jaw and down on to my neck was a huge HUGE sprawling mass of swollen lumps, purple, bruised... my face looked completely different... like Elephant Man on the bottom. It was excruciatingly painful as well! Laying my head down on a pillow was miserable! It itched constantly and throbbed and pulsated! It was awful!

Now that the swelling and pain has subsided, I am left with deep dark purple marks where the eruption was... I am trusting that these will fade in time.

I guess I'll say now, that I am committed to this natural healing process for 1 year. So I stopped picking March 16th 2008 and I am committed to letting my body heal itself for one year. During that time I am addressing the root cause that got me picking at my skin to begin with.

But I'm also going to say here that I encourage anyone out there going through this to seek help, any help they can get! A therapist or a spiritual advisor most importantly, and possibly an aesthetician or dermatologist! Really and truly! Something in me wants to see this through on my own, but I also see that when I was in my picking mode I really really needed help! And I see that the sooner I had gotten help, the better off I would have been! (I recognize this sentence to be completely gramatically incorrect, but for the life of me I have no clue how to fix it. :) Suggestions welcome.)

I have had some inspiration come in recently that shows me that complete healing of the skin is 100% possible. My friend who had been seeing the aesthetician and I recently got together for a day. I hadn't seen her in about a year and the last time I did see her, she had eruptions and scarring over most of her face. After a year of going to this aesthetician her skin is 100% clear, scar free, bright, radiant, and glowing! And she looks FREE!

So what that shows me is that a cure exists in the physical world. And so it also exists within me. And it is from this place of knowing that I am launching into the next phase of work on healing. Deep deep spiritual work. And for that we're gonna need a separate blog! Follow me to the next chapter, won't you! :)

Sending you love and peace wherever you are on your journey!